The first time is the moment that everyone dreams of.
The first time is the moment that everyone urns for.
The first time is suppose to be awkward.
But never had I prepared for my first time.
I had planned on sleeping,
It was a normal night.
Him asking me saying I wanted to sleep,
I was not ready
I wanted to wait till marriage.
I was living a lie he would never know.
This night was different.
I said I was tired. He just threw me down.
Suddenly I felt like a ragged anne doll.
Thrown on a bed, clothes ripped off.
I screamed, I scream, I screamed.
My voice echoed out for help.
My pleas left unheard.
My pants started to go.
I kicked, I kicked, I fought.
But I was weak, I felt like the smallest thing on the earth.
No matter how hard I fought he would win.
He would gain what he wanted.
He would trap me into my world of hell.